Today would have been my mothers 53rd birthday. I probably would have forgotten to send a card and would be on the phone making up for that and promising something soon.
Then on the evening, we probably would have had a chat on the webcam and Ewan and Dylan would have said hello.
One of the hard things recently is that Ewan seems to becoming aware of the concept of "gone". He has had some nightmares in which his grandad was gone and had a similar dream about me last week, made worse be me being out and not immediately available for a hug although a phone call turned out to be enough.
Put quite simply, we all miss her.
There are so many things in everyday life which tug at a little memory here and there, today was hard because there is one less person in the world for us to celebrate with.
I did hear today that mum's final gift has been passed on to another person who needed help, knowing that she has helped others live longer and happier helps a little.
I've got the afternoon off tomorrow, so some quality time with family is in order I think, or just giving Sarah an afternoon off:)
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